“I am a young
student and believe in the authenticity of Naju”
by Miss Michaela Ji-Eun Kim to MBC TV’s PD Notebook
November 15, 2007
Lord! I pray that everything that I do will become
a glory to Thee, a consolation to the Blessed Mother, and a benefit to all
of us. Let us never be forgetful of Thy mercy and goodness in everything
and at every moment. Amen.
My testimony is truthful, and I have nothing to
hide. Anyone who wishes more information about this testimony is welcome
to contact me at the phone number listed below (Translator’s note:
Later, Miss Kim’s phone number was removed at her request.) I also
sincerely ask the MBC TV staff in charge of the PD Notebook program
to discontinue the practice of altering some of the testimonies without
the witnesses’ permission.
I live in Seoul and first heard about Naju two years
ago. In June of this year, I began making regular pilgrimages there, once
every month. As I have continued visiting Naju, I have found myself
undergoing many changes — in my thoughts, words, and deeds. The Blessed
Mother of Naju has been reforming my soul! Furthermore, as I have felt
the boundless love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother, which, it doesn’t
seem, the PD Notebook staff have experienced or know about, I am
earnestly crying out like this to defend that love, which I would never
trade for anything, even my life.
I am a junior in the College of Law at Ewha
University in Seoul. Before I knew the Blessed Mother of Naju, I had been
very proud and extremely sensitive to others’ eyes. Even to the strangers
with whom I chat on the Internet, I had pretended to be smart and high
class. I had insisted on wearing expensive clothes and shoes. I had
despised others who appeared to be inferior to me, but had become easily
irritated and upset before those who seemed to be better and prettier than
I. I had been conscious of these shortcomings in me, and had made
Confessions, attended retreats, and sought counseling to no avail. I made
one short-lived resolution after another only to return to old habits. I
had continued to be a slave of others’ eyes.
Even after I first learned about the Blessed Mother’s
Chapel in Naju, I had doubts and could not believe; and my life continued
to be miserable. Since June of this year, however, I made a promise with
the Blessed Mother and have been visiting Naju on every First Saturday.
Since then, I have been greatly surprised to find myself gradually
changing, as I have continued the pilgrimages. I have felt so grateful to
the Lord and the Blessed Mother for calling me and pouring so much love
and grace into me.
In Naju, I have personally witnessed many miracles,
but the most precious fruit has been the grace of repentance. While
walking on the Way of the Cross in Naju, I have realized the Love with
which the Lord laid down His whole Body and the motherly Love of the
Blessed Mother. This Love is so sublime and pure and has so powerfully
touched and changed me.
I have also seen the beauty of Mrs. Julia Kim who
leads a life of simple, pure, and sacrificial love. This beauty is
entirely different from the kind of beauty that I was seeking in the
secular world. Also, her humility in saying, “If there has been
anything good in my life, that has been the work of the Lord and the
Blessed Mother; and if there has been anything bad and shameful, that has
been done by me, a sinner,” contrasted so starkly with my past life
filled with pride and complacency. She is like a lighthouse erected by
the Lord and the Blessed Mother for our sake. Because we commit so many
sins, which is so obvious in the news reports on TV and so on, the world
is being flooded with sins, Mrs. Julia Kim loves the Lord and the Blessed
Mother so much and practices the love from Them in her life. She is not
an object of idolization. You should know this clearly.
We believe in the Lord and worship Him; we venerate
and love the Blessed Mother as our Mother in Heaven who constantly makes
sacrifices and prays for us to the Lord at His side; and Mrs. Julia Kim is
a person who willingly participates in the Passion of the Lord by
suffering so many severe pains every day in reparation for the sins in the
world to soften the just wrath of the Lord and to help the sinners to
repent. She is the littlest of the little souls who offers up everything
in her life, not even neglecting the most trivial things in her life for
the conversion of sinners.
So, I have become a reborn person after repeated
pilgrimages. I have sought not the external beauty but the beauty of my
soul. In the past, if someone begged for money in the subway train, I
wished to help him but could not do so being conscious of others’ eyes.
Now, I can gladly give them money, thinking about Mrs. Julia Kim who
practiced charity regardless of persecutions, jealousy, or criticism. I
am even able to help an old lady getting off a bus with a large, heavy
bundle, by carrying it for her to the outside of the bus. In the past,
when I entered a public restroom and found it dirty and with scattered
bathroom tissue, I only complained and blamed others. Now, I can gladly
pick up the bathroom tissue and put it in the trashcan. I am surprised at
myself, so different from the past.
I also find myself being kind and warm to everyone I
meet. In the past, I was rough and haughty to the clerks in department
stores, libraries, and so on, but, after I knew the Blessed Mother of Naju,
I have realized that the life of practicing humility and lowliness is far
happier than the life of struggling to be higher than others. I have been
coming out of the thick shell of pride, which has been replaced by new
buds sprouting in me.
Also, in the past, making my Confession was so
difficult and inconvenient. Now, I am aware that the confessional is a
place of love where the Lord is present and forgives our sins with His
mercy. In the past, I only superficially believed in the Real Presence of
Our Lord in the Eucharist. After I made visits to Naju, I have realized
that the living Jesus is truly present in the Eucharist and that the
Eucharist is a Sacrament in which Jesus comes to us as our Food to be
united with us. Now, every time I receive Communion, I am so moved and
shed tears. How can I adequately explain this?
Now, I attend Mass more frequently and pray the
rosary with the great joy of praying with the Blessed Mother. In the
past, I complained, “Lord, why should I suffer such great pains?
Why? Why?” Now, I can offer them up in reparation for my sins and
others’ and as a gift to God the Father for the conversion of sinners, as
Mrs. Julia Kim does. I am overjoyed for being able to participate in the
love of the Cross and meet Jesus. This is how the Blessed Mother has been
nurturing and bringing us up. Truly, I do not want to go back to the old
life before I knew the Blessed Mother of Naju — even if a sword threatens
to penetrate my neck. I do not want to live as before. I have seen
miracles and experienced them.
The Blessed Mother’s Chapel and Mountain in Naju
frequently becomes filled with powerful fragrance of roses, which is a
sign of the Blessed Mother’s love, friendship and presence. This
fragrance does not come from a bottle of any artificial perfume or a piece
of cloth wet with perfume as reported in your TV program. Don’t you have
any fear of God?
When I pray in Seoul thinking about the Blessed
Mother of Naju, I frequently smell the fragrance of roses. (This
fragrance is not exactly the same as the natural fragrance of roses. It
is not like any natural or artificial fragrance in the world. It is
uniquely sweet and pleasant and never makes anyone tired of it however
long it may be smelled.) How can you explain that I smell this fragrance
in Seoul, so far from Naju? Not only that, I often smell it when I enter
the Naju website on the Internet. I am smelling it right now as I write
this testimony. This is a sign that the Blessed Mother is with me.
I also saw the unusual phenomena of the sun in Naju.
I could look at the sun without straining my eyes. The sun turned into an
amazing image of a white disk, looking like the Eucharist, pulsating and
surrounded by different colors. How can anyone make this up?
What I have experienced is but a small portion of the
signs that occur in Naju. The Blessed Mother said in her message through
Mrs. Julia Kim, “The tears are important, but the messages that I give
you are more important.” She brings us the miracles, because our
minds and hearts are hardened and would not accept the messages unless the
messages are accompanied with miraculous signs. Especially in our age,
there are many who say, “Where is God? I will believe Him, if I can
see Him.” The Lord and the Blessed Mother are giving us the signs of
Their presence, because They so anxiously wish that all of us will repent
of our sins and be saved.
Naju is truly a holy, pure, and beautiful place. I
sincerely hope that the PD Notebook staff, who joined hands with
the false witnesses in producing this program on Naju filled with
distorted information, will not hold on to their mistakes and, then, wail
bitterly, beating the ground with their hands.
The Lord truly lives. I earnestly pray that those
who watched the MBC’s PD Notebook program on Naju will not commit
the sins of falsely judging and condemning the works of the Lord and the
Blessed Mother and those who believe in them.
Lord, have mercy on them; they know not what they are
I pray that the love and blessing from the Lord
and the Blessed Mother will descend on everyone who reads this testimony.