sinner was surely approaching death; but I am alive and healthy
sinner was surely approaching death, but received a new life by the
love of the Lord and the Blessed Mother. I write this testimony to
share the Blessed Mother’s love with all my brothers and sisters
who are in pains.
was in great pains and was visiting this hospital and that hospital
without even knowing the name of my illness. Eventually, my case was
diagnosed as a cancer in the lymphatic glands. I received a surgery,
but I was not expected to live much longer. After receiving this
death sentence, I and my husband cried together. The only choice
left to us was to wait for my death. I thought that, if I was going
to die, I wanted to go home, but I continued to stay in hospital
because of my family. In the hospital, painful treatments continued.
Because of severe pains, I had to take analgesic every day. The side
effects of the medicine, however, made my whole body swollen. It was
very difficult for me to move my body. I thought that, because the
Lord was alive, I was not going to die. But my prayers were
superficial and, gradually, my mind was becoming filled with anger.
I was developing a temper, trying to do everything my way.
four months in hospital, I took another X-ray in preparation for
discharge from the hospital. But the X-ray showed that I had a new
tumor inside my nose. Doctors said I needed a surgery. The sky was
falling upon me. I blamed the world and blamed the Lord. I thought
that it was the end.
people around me implored me to receive the surgery, I did. But I
looked so ugly after the surgery. I hated myself. The nurse said,
“Ma’am, pray. Pray with confidence.” So, I began praying the
rosary and regained some peace. However, I had another test, and the
doctors said that I needed one more surgery. I cried loudly. I
wanted to be discharged from the hospital, even if I was going to
die. My husband made me receive the third surgery.
about six months passed after the third surgery, I was also found to
have a diabetes and a liver failure. I was discharged from the
hospital, but I overheard the doctor saying that I would live for
one to six more months. Knowing that I might live one more month
only, I begged the Blessed Mother to let me live three more months.
I said to her that I would do preparations during that time. I cried
continuously and came home. And I began the preparations. I gave all
my clothing to people, but not to anyone who knew me. I did not want
my children to see others wearing their mom’s clothes.
day, with my swollen body and bald head, I stepped outside the home.
There were piercing pains in the head. I was wearing a scarf over my
head to hide the baldness. I was also wearing a mask to prevent cold
air from getting into my lungs. The cancer was spreading to my gums
and teeth, but there was nothing I could do about them.
time later, a man encouraged me to go to Naju. So, I attended an
overnight prayer service in Naju. My body was still swollen all over
and looked ugly. From the moment I entered the Blessed Mother’s
House, I continuously wept. I wept all night. Every word that Julia
was saying sounded like words meant for me and penetrated the core
of my mistakes. I was totally shaken up. ‘I have lived so badly
until now. The Blessed Mother has been weeping because of me.’ I
felt unbearable sorrows in my heart. It was hard to describe, but
gradually my heart, which had been so pressed down by the thoughts
of the approaching death, was gradually becoming filled with hope.
‘ Now, even if I die, I am yours. Your will be done.’ I prayed
and asked the Blessed Mother to forgive me for having blamed others
when it was my fault. I was ashamed of my past and beat my chest.
‘It was all because of this poor sinner. Forgive me. From this
moment, I will believe the Mother’s words and live accordingly.’
I screamed and shed tears of repentance. When the overnight prayer
meeting was over and I was headed home, I felt more energy. The
world, which had looked so dark, now looked bright. People whom I
had hated looked so lovely now. Since that time, I have attended
every First Saturday overnight prayer meeting and Thursday night
Holy Hour prayer meeting. In the mean time, I stopped all the
medicines. Gradually my hair grew back and I became completely
healed all over my body.
has already been more than two and a half years since then. I was
asking the Blessed Mother to extend my life by three more months.
But I am still alive and healthy. I am so grateful to the Blessed
Mother of Naju. Now the time for waiting for Thursday for the Holy
Hour prayer meeting seems too long. The Blessed Mother is calling
sinners who are repenting and is helping them pray. I thank God and
the Blessed Mother for calling this sinner to every First Saturday
overnight prayer meeting and every Thursday evening Holy Hour
meeting. I thank everyone who has been praying for me and everyone
who is reading this testimony. I want everyone to be eternally
blessed by the Lord who has performed miracles of love for our sake.
Glory and praise be to Thee! Amen.”
Hye-Ja Moon, 119 7/3 Namkyo-dong, Mokpo, Jeonnam Province, June 13,