IS YOUR MOTHER”
Since a long time ago, I have found myself silently calling out to
a mother from a deepest part of my heart.
When I was burdened with difficult problems, feeling helpless and
suffocating, and also when little troubles and worries kept me awake at
night, I was calling out like this, unloading all my problems and concerns
before the mother.
It was only
quite some time later that I began realizing that this mother I had been
calling even from my sub-consciousness was not the mother who gave birth
to me physically but the Mother whom the Lord gave to the Apostle John and
all of us prior to the critical moment of His death on the Cross, saying, “This
is your mother.”
Our true and
irreplaceable Mother! Because
all His children in the world needed help and care, as they cross the
ocean of sins and death, at the most difficult time of His death agony,
the Lord gave to John, representing all of us, a mother, and, to His
Mother, gave all the children in the world as her sons and daughters so
that she might become a real mother for all of us with a new Motherhood.
The Mother who
brought the Only Son of God into this world with her Immaculate Heart!
It is truly a cause of our great amazement, gratitude, joy, and
hope that she conceived the Lord, gave birth to Him, brought Him up,
experienced poverty with Him, supported and accompanied Him during His
public life, participated in His Passion, and, for two thousand years
since her resurrection and assumption, has been together with the Lord and
with us, enlightening for us the way to the Lord’s glorious kingdom and
guiding and helping us on the way. Even
the Apostles were with the Lord on earth only for three years.
Then, how much more reliable our Mother is!
I thank God for
allowing me to realize that, even though the Mother is a creature, she is
a new bud and flower in the Holy Trinity’s garden, the spouse of the
Holy Spirit, and the surest shortcut to the Lord.
Who can teach and guide us better than the Mother who has been with
the Lord for two thousand years?
While I was on
a retreat for a week in Japan, I first came across two books written by
St. Louis-Marie Grignon de Montfort, and consecrated myself to the Mother
even without knowing well the meaning of consecration.
The next year,
Bernard from Switzerland, a volunteer worker at the same retreat house,
sent a short fax to Fr. Raymond Spies in Korea introducing me to him.
Soon I visited Naju with Fr. Spies, and was also able to associate
with many renowned priests in Japan.
Among them, Fr. Louis Derukoru sent me more than a total of about
200 books on the Blessed Mother. I
feel ashamed that I learned about Naju, where apparitions no less
significant than at anywhere else in the world were occurring and many
messages that formed a book were received, as late as June 14, 1994, nine
long years after their beginning.
I began reading
the message book with some doubts at first, but soon became totally
absorbed in it, spending a whole night to finish reading it.
Somewhat casually, I began listening to the audio recordings of
Julia’s reading the messages, but soon became totally moved, shedding
Your profound love enters our hearts by the power of grace, not
through analysis, research, or scientific investigation.
As people lead their faith life, they often imagine what Heaven is
like and develop their own ideas about it.
After a long time, these ideas, which are often self-centered and
do not necessarily conform to reality, settle and harden in their minds.
Thus, even now, while hearing the Heavenly Mother’s words, many
people cannot readily accept them, because, when they compare her words
with their own hardened concepts of Heaven, they find big discrepancies. Many people refuse to listen to the Mother’s words or find
out about them, feeling offended by them from the beginning.
They remind us of the Pharisees two thousand years ago, who could
not recognize Christ Who was standing before their eyes, because of their
Thank you for being with us even today, shedding warm tears in
Naju, a small city in the southern part of this country, worrying about
your children who are so immature and unfaithful.
I don’t know how to describe my gratitude to you for ceaselessly
telling us to overcome the world and sins with love.
Thank you for choosing Julia, a little and simple soul, so
approachable by anyone, as a channel of your love, life and words that
you, together with the Lord, bestow upon this world.
You chose her,
who grew up in poverty and cruel mistreatment, but without losing her
innocence, as an instrument for making your most sublime wishes known to
others, because you loved all of us so much despite our poverty, weakness
and unworthiness. This is why
your words sound so much kinder and more precious to us and your signs
look so much more amazing to us.
Now, I cannot
help giving testimonies to a few of the marvelous, hard-to-believe things
that have been occurring to me and those near me since the time I learned
about the Blessed Mother of Naju.
eighty-two years old, had been suffering a deep pain in her chest since
her youth because of an accident. This
pain disappeared completely after Julia prayed for her. I am so grateful for this, and know that my mother prays
every morning with a candlelight lit.
One of my
grandsons, a seventh grader, had a severe case of atopic eczema for years.
He even had to be hospitalized for one month.
Soon after I asked Julia to pray for him, I was shocked to see that
Julia suddenly had the same disease, with an itchy, inflamed rash all over
her neck and shoulders. When I came back to Seoul, I found my grandson completely
healed. However, his father,
a doctor, still does not accept this as a miraculous cure.
It seems that human knowledge sometimes makes one become closed to
the workings of the supernatural graces from you.
You are in my heart and around me.
How can I possibly put down the rosary from my hands?
How can I possibly neglect the early morning Masses?
How can I make known to others what I feel in my heart?
For the past
ten years, you have been confirming your presence in Naju, a small,
insignificant city in the southwestern corner of the peninsula, which has
been traditionally most neglected among the regions in Korea.
You shed tears and bloody tears of love for the past 700 days for
us, who are miserable like dust. You
squeezed your whole body to give us the fragrant oil for 700 consecutive
days. On November 24, 1994,
you called the Apostolic Pro-Nuncio to Naju and sent down the Eucharist
two times during his visit. All those who witnessed these miracles in the Chapel received
Communion from the hands of the Archbishop, who was the representative of
You called me also to that place and let me witness everything that
occurred that day from a close distance.
The Eucharist that came down looked unusually white and bright!
I wished that this Eucharist could be preserved for many years, but
instead was able to participate in consuming a small piece.
I do not know how to thank you enough for this.
The more love I
receive and feel, the more pain I also feel for not being able to share it
with more people. Especially
when the love that I pass on to others is ignored, scorned at, and
sometimes comes back to me as hatred, I seem to understand a little about
why you have been shedding tears and tears of blood.
Mother, who is
spotlessly beautiful and immaculately pure!
How improper, presumptuous, and dangerous it is when we, who are so
lowly, become “adults”! I
wish to conclude my testimony by quoting your message on February 28,
children. Know clearly that
Satan leads you to judge with your own ideas and behave as adults,
feeling confident and sure, and, thus, makes you fall into a trap.
You must gain Heaven by totally offering yourselves up with a
tear down our old houses! Let’s
get out of the graves! The
Lord is coming!”
Mother! I will scream like this ceaselessly — to myself who
always hesitates before the Lord Who is the way, the truth, and the life,
and to everyone else who is like me!
June 15, 1995